/it’s a mad, mad life/

And, the crazy thing is, I chose it.

As of right now, I think I’m going insane. Or maybe I was insane when I decided to take on too much and just hadn’t realized it yet. But now, oh, right now, I’m feeling the effects.

This all goes back to two posts ago in which I let you in on my daily schedule.

This week has just gotten a little crazier, so here’s the schedule:

Monday:

  • school
  • read Free to Choose
  • work

Tuesday:

  • school
  • read Free to Choose
  • exercise
  • work

Wednesday:

  • school (there’s a ridiculous group project that, hilariously, I end up doing a ton of the work for)
  • go crazy
  • start working on debate
  • brain-crash
  • work

Thursday:

  • school
  • read Free to Choose (?)
  • debate
  • church

Friday:

  • school
  • read Free to Choose
  • debate (?)
  • church
  • work

Saturday:

  • read Free to Choose
  • work

Sunday:

  • celebrate the Resurrection
  • probably work on debate if we end up not celebrating with family
  • panic

Next Monday:

  • school?
  • cram for debate
  • work

Tuesday:

  • school?
  • more cramming for debate
  • prepare to leave the next morning
  • most likely cry
  • work
  • get no sleep

Wednesday:

  • leave for tournament
  • panic all the while
  • retain calm exterior

Essentially, prayers would be greatly appreciated. I feel so under-prepared and I don’t want to bomb this. I’ve worked too hard and that would be so disappointing. V_V Also, I really don’t want to go more insane than I am already.

But the thing is, I need to appreciate this.

Who has the opportunity to work whenever they want/need to without following a for-sure schedule or the fear of getting fired? Me.

Who gets to go to speech and debate tournaments? Nerds. And I just so happen to be one…

Who else has this crazy-probably-awesome-insane life? Hopefully, no one… 😉

Love,

Rana

P.S.

I’m still working on the blog renaming thing! Apparently, the ones I like (and you voted for) are taken. Of course. Why would I check availability beforehand? No, that would be smart.

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Old Beginnings

Good afternoon, friends!

I need help. I’m not liking “The Villain Authoress” as my blog name anymore for a few reasons:

  1. My posts deal with more than just writing. I’d like to leave a little more room for post content without readers looking at them through a writing sort of lens.
  2. I’d like something that can grow up with me (I’d come up with this tag when I was maybe 13 or 14? I’m 17 now and things have changed as they tend to do).
  3. I’d like a URL that captures more of my personality, so when you click onto this blog, you feel as if you’re stopping by to chat with an old friend, not read a post written by some obscure fairy of the cosmos.

Since I write for you to read, I’d like your opinion. Below is a poll and if you wouldn’t mind choosing your favorites, I’d appreciate it. 😉 Suggestions are also welcome.

(You can choose up to 3 options. 😉 )

Meanings behind the names:

1. livingintheshade.wordpress.com

2. everything-under-the-shade.wordpress.com — 1 and 2 are essentially a play on “everything under the sun” but, as a homeschooling redhead, I don’t do “sun.” 😛

3. theskepticeclectic.wordpress.com — I’m quite the skeptic and have many interests.

4. musings-of-a-ginger.wordpress.com — *points to hair* I think this is pretty self-explanatory.

5. legally-ginger.wordpress.com — *twists lock of red hair* This too. And I think there’s a movie called “Legally Blonde,” but I’ve never seen it. Is it okay to do a play on that…?

6. lostinwonderland.wordpress.com — Kind of whimsical and I like that.

7. myfavoriteflavorismore.wordpress.com — I try to do new things, so this can refer to food or life in general!

God bless!

Rana

Is it just me or are little kids terrifying?

Hey there!

This morning, I had to play substitute teacher to a group of kindergartners before Church (because that’s when the little ones have CCD/Sunday School).

Can I just say that little kids are terrifying?

I think it’s sort of similar to that mutual fear that humans share with, you know, spiders. “They’re just as afraid of you as you are of them.”

Not sure what it is, but kids don’t like me.

Get this. There’s this little girl. She’s the cutest thing with blond/white curls (these are the curliest curls you’ve ever seen) and she’s super outgoing. She walks up to my sister and tells her she loves her and she’s only seen her once or twice before.

I smile at her and ask if she loves me.

Her response? “Um, no.”

This was several months ago.

Thursday, we stop by an elementary school for whatever reason. And it might be because I’ve been home schooled for the last seven years – I don’t know – but I walked into the cafeteria and it was one of the most horrifying moments of my life. These little humans just stop what they’re doing and watch us walk through their lunch room with these large eyes that sort of seem to want to suck your soul away. I try to smile, right? I don’t think I got one back.

Friday night, I go to celebrate my cousin’s birthday. My baby cousin (whose birthday we were not celebrating) sort of just shooed me away and screeched like a pterodactyl when I asked for a hug.

Whenever I try to hold babies, they start crying.

Am I doing something wrong? Is there something inherently scary about a 4’11″/5′ ginger? I- I don’t know. I’m so confused. My life is so awkward. Like, what am I supposed to say to the parents? “I promise I wasn’t doing anything! They just started screaming! Why was I holding my arms out? Well, it wasn’t to kidnap or strangle them.”

I guess I should just look at cute kids and babies from afar. But that makes me a creeper. Oh, well. Whatever works, right?

God bless!

Rana

P.S.

Guess what I get to do all day tomorrow? Yep. Babysit the cute one who shooed me away while her baby brother is being born. 😛 So prayers for my aunt would be appreciated!

United, We Stand

Hello, lovely!

I trust everything’s been going well since yesterday. ❤

Today, I wanted to ramble a bit on what is and isn’t freedom of religion/speech in regards to the Satanic Black Mass happening in Oklahoma later on today.

1) It’s not freedom of religion and here’s why:

Want to be a satanist? Fine. Don’t steal a consecrated Host from a Catholic Church so you can desecrate our Savior (although I believe the stolen Host was returned to the Church). I don’t care if you hate Him. You wouldn’t be allowed to get a bunch of people to rally and use a stolen Koran as toilet paper. That would get shut down immediately.

It’s not freedom of religion. It’s the sick and twisted parody of religion designed to mock a true God. Just as abortion is a sick parody of the words Jesus spoke at the Last Supper when He said, “This is My Body,” satanists twist the Catholic Mass to spit in God’s face.

2) It’s not freedom of speech and here’s why:

It’s hateful. Want to set up a rally for Nazis to publicly announce their hate for Jews? I doubt if you could. It’s offensive and totally wrong.

Free speech should be limited to only the laws of libel, obscenity, sedition, and slander. This would fall under obscenity and slander. I have no clue why the state would legally allow this to happen other than the fact that they don’t care and are part of a society that hates God.

Fact: Satanists only go for consecrated Hosts from the Catholic Church because they know it’s the true Host – they know it’s Jesus Christ. I read an interview done with a former satanist who said that the ones who are really in deep could pick out of several identical pieces of bread which was a consecrated Host. The Host is not a symbol or replica of Christ. It IS Christ.

Further more, at this black mass, it’s said that they will perform a reverse exorcism – they’ll cast the Holy Spirit out of a person. It’s so sick. Disgusting.

And you know what? It doesn’t matter if you believe the Catholic Church is right or not. We’re all Christians. An attack on one denomination is an attack on all denominations. We should be unified as it says in the Bible. Let’s take a moment (or between 3:00 and 4:00 p.m. – the Holy Hour) and pray together that God intercedes and doesn’t allow this blasphemous thing to happen. Let’s pray for a change of heart of those participating in the Black Mass.

United, we stand. Divided, we fall.

To help stop this event, click here. (I don’t know if you can still sign the petition to stop it, but just in case…)

God bless!

Rana

Where did hope go?

Where did hope go?

It’s been on my heart lately. People have been making depression, sickness, lack of hope, etc. look “cool.” If you’re not on meds, if you’re not hurting yourself, if something’s not wrong with you, you’re weird. You’re innocent. No one will like you. You’re not cool. Well, I’m hurting right now, and it’s not cool. Guess what. It hurts.

What kind of a suicidal society wants their children to be in pain to be accepted?

Even as a Christian, life can be hard, you know? Sometimes I feel hopeless and just completely ready to go. I should probably be happy that I’m alive and I have life a lot better than a lot of others, but I’m not. I’m selfish and imperfect (sorry to let you all down! 😛 ).

It was on the news the other day. Another school shooting. Why can’t the news show something hopeful for once? I’m sick of all the crap. I’m sick of all the darkness. I’m tired of feeling like I have nothing to look forward to in life. When I graduate, what’s the world going to be like? Two short years, but so much can happen in that time.

Is the majority of the world’s population as sick as the ones who make the news?

The utter putrid sickness of this world is so overwhelming and I can’t handle the thought that this is what I’m growing up in.

I’m terrified.

I need to see something good. I need to know there’s something for me to look forward to. What were all those survivors of World War I and II holding on to? How did they do it?

Frodo and Sam – Sam said they were holding on because there was still some good in this world. Where is it?

If you see it, show me. Please. I need it so much.

The world needs it.

Do you have answers to all these questions? Seriously, we can use some cheering up right now.

God bless each and every one of you beautiful people out there. ❤

Sincerely,

A very confused Rana

I Want Your Opinion! Pleeeeeeeeze! *grovels at your feet* Please!

Hey, there!

Okay. I’m desperate. I don’t really like how the blog looks… I want a new header. I’m not sure if I’ll keep the background.

It all just seems so… boring.

SO! I’ve come up with some sample headers. I want you to tell me which you like best, or if you like what I’ve got now, or if you like one, but would like to see more stuff happening with it. PLEASE HELP MEEEEEEEEE! Please? 🙂 (I made these with GIMP and got some fonts off of dafont.com and the butterfly images are courtesy of Hawsmont Universe.)

Option #1

Header_1

 

Option #2

header_2

 

Option #3

header_3Okay! Feedback time! 😀

 

Aaaaand, now for the background!

 

Thank you SOOOO much in advance!

God bless!

Rana